Meet Camalla Ash (Also Known as Amma”) | Self-Love Facilitator “

We had the good fortune of connecting with Camalla Ash (Also Known as “Amma”) and we’ve shared our conversation below.

Hi Camalla, how has your work-life balance changed over time?
My balance constantly evolves as I continue to grow. I’m a mother of five, a wife and a serial entrepreneur. Being balanced is something I can’t afford to not apply in my everyday life. The word “balance,’ is in my business name, “Creating Balance With Camalla.” When I was pondering about naming my business, I asked myself, “what am I trying to accomplish in my way of life?” The first word that came to mind was, “balance.”

One chapter in my life, I used to suffer from severe anxiety and mild depression. As I’ve grown and studied more about “who I am,” I realized that my life lacked “balance.” My cause of anxiety and depression, throughout my life, was stemmed from the lack of me, “creating balance.”

I’ve been taking care of others, putting their needs before mines, having no choice but to “grow up,” without choice, since I was 10. Ten was the year I was molested. I felt like I couldn’t tell on him because I thought it would hurt my mom. She loved him. I didn’t tell my father because I knew he would of killed him. No, really. I know for a fact my Father would of killed him. I’ve seen how deep his anger runs, it’s in me. I didn’t tell my Amma (grandmother) because it would of killed her! I love her, so much. Knowing that she would of heard what happened to me, broke me. So, I never asked if she did. I couldn’t bare with the thought of hurting. It would of killed her, slowly. She’s my rock, my foundation. She is a representation of who I am. For those reasons alone, I kept the secrets. I stilled haven’t shared many other secrets with anyone because, I still feel the need to protect others.

Balance, was hard for me because I didn’t know what that looked like. My Amma was as balanced as I thought someone could be. I became aware that, she was hurting most of her life spent on earth. After she transitioned, I felt like her weight of pain was transferred onto me. I’m carrying her and her mother’s trauma while I’m dealing with my me and my mother’s pain.

My grandmother was the oldest. My mother is the oldest. I’m the oldest. I’m the completion of this cycle. Let me break it down, we’re all the oldest (My GrandMa, My Mom & Me) = (111) 111 is an Angel Number, “meaning, the start of a new beginnings. It’s a sign to trust what’s happening in your life.” The number 111, also has meaning in numerology.

The article, “Numerology 111: The Angel Number 111 Meaning, written by (hiddennumerology.com). “According to numerology, the number 1 is connected to new beginnings, independence, and positivity. The energy of the number one, carries masculine attributes and is ruled by the Sun. Spiritual awakening has a lot to do with the number 111. Your angels sent you this message to give you hope that you will find your true calling in life. When we add the numbers 111 together, we are left with 3. In numerology, the number 3 is connected to creativity and imagination. It is aligned with the energy of the Ascended Masters, these are individuals who fulfilled their dharma (life plan). They are always watching over and guiding you in everything that you do. Additionally, 111 stands for self-love, prosperity, and even good fortune. It urges you to pursue the things you want rather than giving up.

It’s my purpose to continue to add balance in my life, as I heal. I am destined to break the generational curses that was passed down to me. I used to fight this purpose, now I embrace it. My daily affirmation is, “let go control, embrace balance.”

Can you give our readers an introduction to your business? Maybe you can share a bit about what you do and what sets you apart from others?
I’m the owner of Amethyst Meditation Studio located in Fountain Square Indianapolis, IN. I started taking my healing journey serious is 2020. It was the year I was diagnosed with mild depression and severe anxiety. This diagnose pushed me to start my business, “Creating Balance With Camalla.” My goal is to help others create their own balance while I display how I create my own. During my healing journey, I discovered a passion for self-love. I believe self-love is the foundation of growth. Once you take the time to get to know who you are and what you love about yourself, everything in your life will reflect that. This is how y title was created, “Self-Love Facilitator.” As I continued my growth, I was inspired to open a studio to host my healing. I named it after the first crystal that I purchased, amethyst. I gravitated to this crystal also because it’s the same color of my late sis favorite color, purple. Part of me feel that she helped me find my first amethyst crystal.

I got to where I am today by believing in myself. I can care less what someone else thinks about me. My Amma (grandmother) instilled in me, to “always believe in myself. Never let anyone tell you who you are.” She also stressed the importance of, “speaking life into yourself. Never allow your own tongue to speak negative about you.” For that reason, I held my head high and faced whatever life presented to me. Was it easy? No, but I love a challenge. I love to learn new things. I aim to continue to grow as each moment passes. Seize every moment. Be the creator of my own movie. This has allowed me to not compare myself with others. I am one of a kind, I walk in that power. No one can duplicate my gifts, so why waste time focusing on theirs? I despise wasting time. Time is valuable, I don’t have a second to waste. I overcome challenges by embracing them. I feel like that’s the only way to learn the lesson. Every problem has a solution. Again, I don’t like wasting time. I’ve made a decision to use my pain or challenge as my fuel. To each is own. I don’t knock anyone’s way of life.

The greatest affirmation I’ve spoken was, “be in tuned but not consumed.” Too much of anything can kill you. Balance is the way of life. I believe it, I let go, I receive.

Let’s say your best friend was visiting the area and you wanted to show them the best time ever. Where would you take them? Give us a little itinerary – say it was a week long trip, where would you eat, drink, visit, hang out, etc.
This past April, I took a self-love healing trip to Stone Mountain, Georgia. I stayed in a airstream. It was beautiful. The airstream was surrounded by nature and a natural spring water . It was still. No vehicle sounds. Just the beautiful nature music. I got to see a deer cross my window as the sun peeped through the shade. At night, I got to hear an owl hoot for the first time. One night I had to stay alone. I was so afraid. The reason of me booking the trip was to face my fear of darkness. If you’ve never stayed in the woods, it’s a different type of darkness I’ve never experienced in life. As scary I was, I never want to stop living life due to a fear that was programed in me. Darkness has never harmed me, so why am I allowing it to control me? I was ready to prove to myself that I will overcome any fear that is stopping me from experiencing life’s beauty. As I was reflecting in the darkness, I discovered that once the light settles, your body naturally taps into its senses to be your eyes. In life, we all faced a darkness that we thought would define who we are. The moment we took the initiative to embrace the darkness, we allowed ourselves to find the light. Be the light when life throws you darkness. The power is within you. I found this airstream on air bnb. If you haven’t taken a off the grid trip, I advise you to book one soon. You will forever remember it.

Who else deserves some credit and recognition?
When I think about who I am and where I’m going, my family deserves full credit. For they are my reason to, “keep going.” Our children are my reminders that “I am a working progress of healing.” Children are a reflection of who you are. They help me face inner child trauma that I didn’t know I was holding onto. Each one of them share a piece of who I am. When I am lacking balance, I seek to them for help. I like to think there is no such thing as an “adult.” We’re all children trying to figure life out.

When I am lacking in areas of balancing, I seek guidance from our children. The great “Nipsey Hussle” once said, “Children spell love with time.” I spend time with our middle child, Bostyn, when I feel that I am lacking balance in creating. She’s such an amazing artist, I share space with her when we draw or paint together. Most of the time we don’t need to speak when we create, we connect our energies instead. We mostly draw animals together. We both love animals. Especially squirrels. She speaks with gentleness and calmness. I enjoy our stillness together. She’s so at peace with herself. I admire that about her. Gratitude for your love and kindness Bea.

I spend time with our youngest son, Sultan, when I’m lacking balance in my confidence. He believes he can do whatever he sets his mind too. I’ve watched him play basketball or I’ve watched him recite the words of a song. He practices a basketball play over and over, until he gets it right. He plays a song back, over and over, until he knows the words. His determination, reminds me to never give up on myself. Just keep going. The sky isn’t the limit. I love that about him. Gratitude for your determination Sully.

I spend time with our youngest daughter, Lauren, when I feel like I’m lacking balance in self-love. Lauren is such a ball of loving light. Her hugs are the greatest! It feels like hugging a big ball of sunshine. I call her, “my little sunshine.” She randomly says to herself, “I’m so stylish, look at me,” as she holds her hands on her hips. She also walks up to me daily, “Mommy, you’re so pretty.” She is love. She uplifts our entire family. I appreciate her light. Gratitude Lolo for choosing me to be your mother.

I spend time with my bonus son, William Jr, when I feel like I’m lacking balance of laughing and listening. He loves to talk. Especially about things he enjoys. He’s also very silly. He tells the corniest jokes but I love them all. What I love most about him, his love language of making people laugh. He has this cute smirk on his face, after he makes us laugh. He can be shy at times, so I just enjoy him sharing his light with us. He enjoys sharing random facts. When we spend time, I give him the floor to speak. He reminds me to always share space with others and give them the opportunity to speak. I’m grateful for his love. Gratitude Will for loving me.

I spend time with our oldest, Aryanna, when I lack balance of being inspired. Aryanna is the hardest working child I’ve ever encountered. She accomplishes everything she puts her mind too. From placing 5th place out of 100 in cross country, on her first try. From making the cheer team at her new school, catching up on missed work, due to a transfer and increasing her GPA within 30 days after she transferred. She’s incredible. She inspires me to push myself. She inspires me to keep going. I love her fire. She never gives up on herself. Gratitude Ary for all that you do. I am proud you,

To my husband. My best-friend, William. My partner in life. I spend time with him when I am lacking the balance of patience. For he is the first man that has nurtured me to accept love. On one of our first dates, he said to me, “I love your eyes. I’ve never seen anything like it.” He then showed me a picture of an Egyptian. He explained how our eyes looked similar. Then, he didn’t know I used to be insecure about my eyes. I used to have a friend who always pointed out my lazy eye. Receiving a compliment about something I was used to people making jokes about, was uncomfortable for me. William helped me see who I am, within. He took the time to remove the walls I built around my heart. His patience with me, is impeccable. For I know that I can be much at times. All jokes aside, his patience has helped me learn how to be patient with him, our children and others. His patience has taught me to apply my love lens when he is lacking love for himself. He’s my soulmate and I am forever grateful to have him as my life partner. I love you William.

It goes to say, my family deserves more than “a little,” credit. They are my reason. They’re my story. I love ya’ll.

Website: www.creatingbalancewithcamalla.com

Instagram: @CamallaAsh / @Amethyst.Indy – Amethyst Meditation Studio

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Aneesha Skinner